Forget Me Not

8:04pm: tomorrow is another day
I guess I had a good weekend. I didn't do anything. Except shuvel fucking snow. Yeah, that wasn't too much fun. Tomorrow is the new semester, and that kidna makes me happy. I wanted to get out of my classes so bad. Some of the people drove me insane. But none of that really matters. I miss Angela. And her laugh. I havn't been in a good mood laley, and it was all because of my grandma. It is nice to know that she is OK though. Sitting around the house sucks. I've been reading and writing. I took my placement test. I scored high on the writing, then the reading I did well. But when it came to math, well, let's just say I suck at math. Embarresed of the score (did I spell that right?). I get to take my driving test on February 14. Valentines day. Man, I hate that holiday. I know I won't be spending it alone or anything, but I don't see the point in it. It's like, guys have an obligation to get us flowers, or chocolates, or whatever the hell they want to. Why can't guys give your presents randomnly instead of that one day? You know you're gonna get something, so it's not like a grand surprise. But hey, if it is an attempt to be sweet, then I guess I can't complain.

7:48pm: HI
I am updating

For no reason

Just felt like it

Cause I know people are looking at this

Even though they aren't involved in my life

And I feel like leaving them things to comment on

It's kinda weird

Someone would actually waste their time and energy to tell me to die

Wow

And I thought I had no life

It seems to me

That I am psycho

And for some odd reason

They don't like that

The only thing I can say

Is

If you don't like what you read

Don't read this ever again

See, life isn't as complicated as everyone makes it

What's New to talk about?

Finals are almost over

I have Angela in most of my classes

Awesome

Brian is going to cambridge

He will now graduate on time

Well,

I think that concludes it

Have a good day everyone!

8:40pm: What I really meant to say ....




wow .... emo ... what a shock!!

Anyways, hello kids how goes it? I hope everying is going just peachy with you guys. My life hasn't beent he greatest, but hey ... whose is? The new semester is comming up, and i got some cool classes.

am voc
4 anatomy
5 psychology
6 mythology

tell me if any of you have these classes. I know for sure that i have trisha in my 6th hour. Makes me happy. I wanted to get it switched, but knowing trisha is in there, i can bear through it.

I'm upset. I think it was pointless to even update.

9:17pm: Quizzes .... fun shit

Your Suicide.. by Konstantine
Your Name/Username
Favorite Number?
Favorite Color?
Gender?	FemaleMaleUndecidedBoth
How will you commit suicide?	You will stab a knife through your heart
How many tries will it take?	80
When will you commit suicide?	August 18, 2024
What will your suicide note say?	Fuck All of You!
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amazingly, i would prbably only say fuck you all. AWESOME!!! joking. I just want to say i dont' want to kill myself before all of you go fucking balistic on me. but i still love the ones who are protective of me. You guys are cool. Went bowling again with jenn and rob. And josh ....(uh oh people are mumbling) we had some fun agian. Jenn feel tring to throw the ball, and she fell more than once. Pretty funny. We saw clint, and i havn't seen that kid in so long, and there is not much to say about him. I watched movies all day today. Me and josh just had to be dumb. We watch spice world ladies and gentlemen. It doesn't matter, i laughed my ass off. That is the whole goal. To laugh. My aunt might be comming over tomorrow. I'm gonna make her get some cleaning products. And a notebook. I need one. I might try and get the car back. I probably won't succeed. But it is worth a try. I gotta call secretary of state on manday, and possible henry ford so i can set up my orientation and take my placement test. I think i'll try for saturday. tomorrow, will involve cleaning, and studying. (i can't spell forgive me). comming home is on on the 5th, and i don't know if i can go. For some reasons i don't feel like explaining right now. I do need my ID. not neccessarily for the tickets, but i want to go to the library. The people at my table like to throw food, and that isn't cool. It upsets me. My hamsters sick. It makes me sad. I hope she will be ok. She has a cold. Do not ask me how it happens, but apparntly i does. I don't want her to die, she is my baby. I got attatched to the little rodent. So does everyone else. They all think she is cool because of her 3 legs. I'm not feeling much love right now, so i'm out.

4:51pm: tis a friday ladies and gentlemen
awesome. Friday. Greatest feeling to be able to know u can stay out late and sleep in late. Yesterday was our snow day. I hung out with Josh, and then later we went bowling with jenn, cindy, and maggie. Them two are pretty awesome. I keep throwing the ball so that it would bounce. It was fucking sweet. Then jenns rob showed up, and so did this kid that likes her. I think people were feeling awkward. Like i am now. today did nothing interesting!! i might go bowling with jenn again later, and i don't know who all else will be going. hopefully, i can end up having some fun. i need to go out to dearborn heights to get my shit. And ineed to call secretary of state to talk about my liscence. Later

7:32pm: yay! I'm crazy!!!

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	Very High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
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those are my test results. I now see why being with me is pretty hard to do. I wouldn't want to be with me eiter. well, anyway, today i guess was ok. Went to voctech and found out we're doing CPR. i hate it, but love it. I have a love hate relationship with it. The cool thing is that i can save lives. makes me feel good. Me and Jenn selled pizze, and it was gone in 1/2 hour. i got to collect the money. Some fucking person paid for 3 pieces of pizza with $50. I keep yelling leave your christmas money at home. I hated making change for big bills. Especially when it is a 20 for 1 piece. Mind you, the pizz is only $1. Went to 4th hour. We did some anatomy in the news shit, and for two presentations, the people talked about thier health issues. Like christina talked about her ADHD and i didn't get it. Why would u tell a whole bunch of people that u don't know or don't care about your fucking issues?? she went into detail. like what meds she was on, and how she has mood swings. ok, i don't care. just stop talking. but, i got through the day. randy didn't even notice i wasn't there for a whole week. It's like fuck you then. Brian stopped by my house before i got here. it was this awkward silence. I tried talking to him, but it wasn't working out well. But i told him i want to be his friend if he will let me. well, i am gonna go indulge myself in more homework, cause u know ... homework is the best thing that ever happend to me. I'll probably end up talking to angela. Later all.

6:36pm: I'm back in Wayne again ....
Me and Alicia threw a new years eve party, and i loved it. Got drunk, and so did everyone else. Chink passed out, but that was ok. he woke back up. I spent new years with Vince, Christoth, Mercer, Chink, Chris, Jared, Teddy, and Andy. I had a good time.

I had a fucked up week since last updated. Vinces ex girlfriend is psychotic. For about two days, she was kind of a stalker. You know, sat outside his house untill he came out so he would talk to her. I havn't heard about her since then, and it's kinda a relief. I don't want to deal with the crazy ex girlfriend bullshit.

My mom comes home on wensday, well ... that's what the people have said. She will be in a temporary wheelchair untill the gets her fake leg (I dont' know how to spell the actaul word). I gotta go home sometime this week, and clean. Vince said that at lest i would be going home, but i didn't want to. i got attatched to my cousins house. Staying up late, and hanging out with chink, and vince. I will miss vince. I wanted to see everyone before i left, but i woke up at 12, and never got a chance to see anyone.

School ..... not cool. i odn't have none of my homework done, so i gotta stay up late again. and then wake up early. Oh well, it's angela time. Later

5:36pm: Fuck this shit ...
Well, me and Brian are over. Not a big surprise considering my sitaution and his attitude. But oh well. He'll move on ... Im already on my way. I think it is better this way. Us both being depressed won't help either of us. So ... yeah we're through. I'm now single. Don't know for how long though. I've been hanging out in dearborn heights with my cousin, and her friends. My favorite is Vince. He is my new interest. I met Alicia's cousin (not mine!!), and she is a little tiny bit ANNOYING!!! she followed me around like fucking crazy!! it was kinda creepy. I guess she wants Vince really bad (haha ... sorry), and well .... he's not interested in her. She keeps giving me the devil stare. I'm sorry, i don't know what i did (ok i do but still) she is only 15. She can't expect to get a 17 year odl. I don't think he is willing to go to jail for her. But oh well. I was at my grandams last night, and i almost went crazy. I have no one to talk to or visit with. So, i went to alicias. We hung out with vince and chris, and we were up untill 6:35 in the morning. Freaky. Then i woke up at 11:30. I can't believe i don't need to sleep at all. Maybe ... just maybe ... i'm a robot and don't need to sleep. OK ... pretty far fetched, but ... interesting thought. Anyway ... tonight is christmas eve (obviously) and while everyone is out with their families, I am sitting at home, waiting for people to call me, or IM me. Christmas doesn't feel right without my mom. She didn't get to come home because of the snow. I like heritage, they seem pretty well laid back. That's nice. They don't really care what their patients do. But if they try to run away, then there is a problem. Its a rehab hospital, i think that is why. They try to give them as much freedom as possible. My aunt was supposed to take my mom stuff, about ... 4 hours ago. i don't know where she is at ... i wish i had the car. I would take my mom her shit, instead of janet. She likes to call me irresponsible. She doesn't do shit herself. I've had a battle with my family. They've been dicks to me. They said that i am making their life harder because i wanted to go home, and i needed a ride. I insisted on calling brian, but nooooooooo that was out of the question. I don't see the big deal. My grandma live in westland on the borderline of livonia, and my aunt lives ind earborn heights. It's a 20 minute drive. but whatever, i am home now. My dad knows, and so does my mom so they better not tell me i can't be here. My parents said i could. And my dad does have a say on what i am allowed and what i'm not allowed to do. i've had such a fucked up week, and i'be had a good time all week with somebody who will remain .... however the fuck u spell that word .. but i think u get it. Some of u will meet this person, some of u will never even know their name. But i kinda like it like that. No one can get into my personal life now. well, my mom got me cell phone for christmas ... which is fucking awesome!! i love my phone ... it's sweet. My mom thinks i need one anyway cause she can never find me ... and with all the hospital stays, it's kinda important. Plus my family moves me all around, so she doens't always know where i am at. I just found out her room phone number. She has been on there since last tuesday. .............................................................. yay i have a phone!!!! i know i am gonna lose the excitment eventually, but hey, it's my first, and i love it. OK people, i am done boring you.

Actually, i'm not. hehe. Alicia and will were talking the other night, and it was quite weird. I mean, i didn't expect her to make a friend that quick. But, she was bored, so i get it. Noting against you will, just .... i dont' know. I need to hang out with friends, but none of them are around much. Rich is now hanging out with Brian, so i don't think he has time for me anymore. Oh well, we'll find out sooner or later. I never know where angela is. I think a lot of times she is with nick. Her grandma always forgets to give her my messages. I'm gonna stop talking. I'm no starting to sound very foolish.

3:32pm: Feel the love ...
Just felt like saying I am happy....

later

9:02pm: At wills house
what is up everyone! I'm obviously at Will's house if you read the subject tittle. This week might be fun. I want to hang out with Trisha, and Risch, and Angela, and of course will. I will be running around a lot. Getting stuff for my mom. Going out to taylor to see her, and getting the hosue ready for her homecomming. I want to get the downstairs all finished so i can go upstairs and get my room done. The whole upstairs is mine! that makes me very happy. Seem as how i will be living there untill the end of college (yes i know, i'm a pussy casue i am gonna stay home right). I'm gonna make it look neato. It is so small that i don't know how much shit i can fit up there. Angela had some nice ideas for the room. Me and brian are having issues. I think he is depressed again. That happens around his birthday. Why, i don't know. I want to make him feel better, but i don't know how. It is a sticky situation, I will put my all into making him cheer up. I like being with my friends. And Brian. It makes me feel better knowing i have people who are by my side. (will, why are you staring at the computer?) ( hey i didn't mean for it to be mean) ok will feels lonley, he is talking to card board. Later

1:02pm: Yawn
Hello all! i just got home from afternoon voctech. I hung out with Sam, angela, and wylie. Or how ever u spell it. we played twister, and watched elf. I saw Mrs. Hikcox, and she wished my mom better. A lot of people did. I didn't know so many people knew. I got lots of hugs. I talked to will last night. I miss talking to him. He now lives around the corner from me. It is kinda cool. we might hang out this weekend. It would be cool. I gotta switch the rooms this weekend. I am gonna movie the upstairs the way i want it. AHHH splinter!! not fun!!! ok now that is out, lets continue. My burn looks worse, but i think it is healing. There isn't any pus or anything, and i am putting that cream on it and washing it out, so hopefully, there is no infection. That would really suck. My mom goes to heritage next week. Everything is working out well. Brian has a mohawk. I gave him one. Never have i cut hair before, but i guess i did good. I went into voctech this morning to see trisha (she wasn't there) and a few people noticed i wasn't there. Jessica said my hair looked cute. She asked why she neevr noticed it before. I wasn't at school all week. I'm thinking that would probably be why. I think i dyed it the saturday before the ER visit. i don't know. I'm confused. This week has been a blur to me. I'm thinking i might hang out with my friends this weekend. Angela cam over this morning, and we made taco salas and acted like idiots. It was fun. We went to miejer at 7 am and got taco seasoning. I make gooooood taco meat. Yes, i made it. She put the money into, i put in my skill. I saw Tina and Askley today. I havn't seen them in so long. i was surprised to see ashley i did't know she was comming. I think i will start cleaning. I have a boost of energy, time to put it to good use.

5:28pm: To people other than my friends ....
Whenever you hear what is going on in my life, please, i beg you, don't give me your sympathy. I don't need it, and i don't want it. I know what is going on is sad, and i would like to deal with it in private. I know I am being a bitch, but it is my issue, not yours. You don't have to deal with it. Please, do not bring the subject up to me, don't ask how she is doing, i don't think it's your bussiness. Besides, why would you want to know sad shit anyway? People who used to be my friends )caitlyn, Jeni( i would like to hear from, but hey, u don't want to that is fine.

Ok, not that i sounded stupid, i am gonna call around. Later.....

7:13pm: Disregaurd that last entry

Hello all!!!! I hope everyone is doing okay this week. 1 more week before we get out for christmas break. It's gonna be fun. Presents, Friends, Parties. Great times! Yes I said party. My cousin is having a New Year's party. She said she is gonna have of course a whole bunch of alcohal. I'm not gonna drink. I refuse to drink. But i can take pictures of everyone else acting like a fool. I think it will be fun seeing Vince drunk. He's already strange. Maybe he would be worse. Which, would be scary. I gotta get two people presents. Jen, and i wanna get one for jeni. Even though we don't talk, I still want to. I  miss being her friend. But I fucked it up, so .... i screwed it all up. But hey, we both are living out lives just fine.

oh yeah, I'm getting another KITTY! I like cats. Makes me happy. I want to adopt a cat, but I need my mom there and I doubt she would want to come with me. Wait ... Brian will be 18 soon. I can just use him. Me, Rich, and Brian hung out on tuesday i think. We went to this pet store, and they had a lot of animals I wanted. I like snakes, and they had Boas. I wanted one, but  I'm not allowed. Brian went on a stealing rampage. He stold pants, he stole a shirt, and stole a CD. He's just a little bit crazy. It's his lfie he wants to steal thats his decision.

I am going over my dads suday. We are gonna go shopping! I am gonna get a coat and probably a couple other things. I really want i coat. My red adidas coat isn't cutting it anymore. One, it's too big, and two, i changed my style. Anyone want a very very warm and clean caot come to me. I am gonna give it away. Someone could use it. Brian is getting me my boots, which make me happy. I really like those. I won't have a probably walking in the snow. And with my coat, i'll be warm, and i think i can walk home just fine now. I havn't walked home since ... maybe a month ago. It's pure laziness. I think i wanna start walking to school. If only i could get up early enough. It takes me forever to get to sleep.

I am going home early tomorrow. Then, I am gonna clean! the whole house again. I want to put up the christmas tree, so I think I am gonna work my ass off. I hope me and Angela can kick it this weekend ( he... i said kick it) , and hope everything goes good.

11:08am: Last entry
I figured i wouldn't update anymore. I have no life. No one talks to me anymore. So instead of boreing poeple, i'm done

2:23pm: It's Saturday!!! WEEEEEEHOOOOO
I decided i am gonna stay home for most of the day. I think I am gonna see Brian later on in the day. I watched Van Helsing and Underworld so far. I don't know what other movies i am gonna wacth. Probably watch my Invader Zim DVDs all over again. They make me happy. I love the Gir. I really do. Thanksgiving wasn't much to brag for. Had two different dinners. My dad's side of the family didn't notice me or Brian. Not a problem for me, but Brian, it was the first time he was ever at a family function, and they didn't acknowldge him. We then went to my cousins house, and ate somemore. And watched movies, and Brian played game cube. We went to Brian's house but there was no turkey to pig out on. So, we did nothing. I watched Chronicles of Riddick. I like that movie. It was cool. Things were blown up and people were killed and they had pruple eyes. It was neato. Me, Angela, and Brian went to the mall. Wow. That was a lot of people. We ate, and then we went home. See! so eventful! Brian is at the new skate park in canton. Hope he is having fun and it isn't one of those lame ones he hates so much. Well, i feel like cleaning. Later

11:08am: Goodmorning All!
I'm very happy there is no school. I get a 5 day weekend. That happens on extremley rare conditions. Tomorrow is turkey day, and may i say i am quite exited. I love turkey. Maybe i won't like all the ciggarette smoke congercating into one room. (did i spell that right?? oh well) My family is really loud. We laugh a lot. And then the guys well about football. Yeah, every holdiday, there is an argument on sports. Whose the best, whose gonna win and why. Dumb shit like that. i finally got my hawthorn heights cd back. I have been missing it terribly. Ofcourse i am listening to it at this moment. Report cards come out next tuesday, which i am not excited about. I didn't do bad, but i didn't do as well as i did last time. That is all gonna change this marking period. Why does wayne have so many marking periods?? we have 6 in a whole year. Who wants that many report cards? Anyway ....
Angela is supposed to come over today, and we are gonna watch my invader zim dvds. My mom is awesome. She got them all for me yesterday. Me and Brian went to see the wayne county light fest. I like christmas lights. There pretty. That's probably the only true reason i like christmas. I am getting a cold. How exciting. I think it is Shower time!!! later guys!!!

p.s. Bobbi, u have a very awseome picture on Mrs. Bak ... I'm loving it.

7:11pm: Numb and Bored
Hello again. I hope everyone is doing ok at this moment. I am doing well i guess. I've been christmas shopping. I went early this year. Why? Not a clue! But i know i did get almost everyone i want to get gifts for, i got them 1 thing. I havn't been doing much latley. I have been reading my old friends journals. I want to reach out to them and help them, but i feel like it's not an option. I hate being on bad terms, but a lot of times, i put myself there. I got accepted to college. yay. go me. See, I do care. I got my 8 year old cousin to like AFI. I think it is kinda cute. Maybe it's just because she is so young. Me and my cousin Alicia talked today, and it was actually fun times. She is so goth now, she is almost completly gone. But there are still, we actually socialize, so that's cool. She showed me her drawings, and she is pretty good. I showed her my book. Kinda. I don't let people read my peoms, songs, whatever they are. So, i won't read anyone elses. I have been told I am becomming emo. That's is kinda sad. To be labeled. I don't like they idea but i do like the music, so i guess it all meshes together. My cousin is really sick. I think she has bronchitis. I am worried cause it think no one will take care of it. I don't know what would happen if it goes untreated. If she gets terribly sick, i will kill her mother for ignoring her. And 8 year old isn't gonna tell her mom their sick. either way, everyone is bitching about her being sick. Wow i have nothing to say. I am numb. The whole cliche. I'm numb, don't feel anything. I know why. I have always been like this when I am ... don't know .... normal? maybe. Be nice and leave a comment.

3:32pm: Long time no see
Hello friends, havn't updated in a while. On purpose, but i think it was better that way. I just applied to Henry Ford. Angela got accepted, and i am so happy for her. I want to get accepted. I want to go to Madonna more, but i don't know if i can't get accepted b/c of my grades before i started caring. But, i am gonna apply. Save up my own money, fill out the application, and hope for the best.

Ok, enough about my future. Let's talk about the present. Ok, Friday was fun. I went to the livonia court house and paid Brian's ticket. After that, Angela came over ad picked me up. We went to food basics, adn we got a whole bunch of food. Like beef pasta. (ohhh i love it). And we saw Jamie. Angela just kept laughing. Then we went and got Trisha. We got to Angela's and cooked. It was yummy. We started acting loke goof balls. Then the man known as jimmy james called from Jeni's house. James, Jeni, and Lynnea stopped by, and Jeni brought her puppy. Jeni, i have to say ur dog is adorable. And, i like the pink. Anway, we ended up babysitting the dog (a.k.a Jake). We read ouor Medical reading books for HOSA. I am reading the most boring one out of all 5 of them. It's called sleep power. Trisha told me the only thing u learn out of it is that if u don't sleep, ur gonna go crazy, kill ur family, and die. And she is basically right. It puts me to sleep. I think that is the only reason I like it.

And here is the bad news. I am grounded as of yesterday. For a stupid reason. For a reason, that was my own choice NOT to do. That made no sense, but it doesn't matter. I don't feel like sharing the reason. So, i am grounded till next sunday, and I will be lonley. So someone should call me. Love me. PLEASE!

3:49pm: Buh bye
I am mysteriously dissapearing .... hehehe

3:23pm: Hello
Well .. Brian is grounded. He screwed up in school again. So the past two days he has been sneaking over to see me. And i have enjoyed his company very much. I do love him dearly, yes i do. So the next few days, i am gonna enjoy me time, and Angela time. Yes my friends, Angela and Rich are over at this very moment. I enoy their company. It make me think that ih ave friends.

And i know your gonna read this .... DO NOT MENTION MY MOOD SWINGS please. i don't think it's anyone's business. Unlike certain people, i don't think my issues are cool and brag wrothy. But if you want to talk about me being Crazy, then ur pretty weird. You would be a hypocrit. Sorry if i am being effensive (not really) but i havn't said anything about us fighting, and the fact u can't stop talking about it makes me realize u must have no much to talk about. So, prove me wrong. Show me ur very intellectual, and u don't care about me. Thanks.

Ok back to reality. Rich decided to put on one of my shirts, take of this pants, and walk aroud with his boxers up his ass. It was funny. Saturday is Brian's party. It will be very fun! i like hanging out with a bunch of people who love me for me! i think it's great. Not many people like me. I like it like that. For some odd reason, i don't want a lot of people to like me. Maybe it's because i really don't care, or if i am just sick and twisted. Who knows?

Well i am gonna hang out and have fun! I wish brian was here ..(tear) i miss him much. When i see him i will let him TOUCH me however he wants. Later.

10:14pm: Long time no see
Havn't updated in a while. Since homecomming. Defiently a long time ago.

Well what can i say that won't make people weird out ... hmmm... i had a good weekend so far. Friday, me, Angela, and Rich and Brian went to the wayne glenn footbal game. For a reason i don't know yet. We left in the middle of half time. We went to The mall to get ice cream, cause Angela was feeling down and needed some ... I met Ronni. She seems very very nice, and very very cool. I met Gabe too. I told him that if he doesn't let her come to Brian's party, i will kidnap her and that wasn't a joke. And i really am. Now that we know what each other looks like, it will be easier and less awkward. Next time Otep is in town, we are going to go see them. I love them. The craziness. The anger. Ronni is gonna let me borrow house of secrets to burn, so know i don't have to spend $14 on a CD.

My mom went back to work on Monday. She is doing a lot better, which makes me extremly happy ... (i can't spell that wow .. i'm dumb). I'm getting worse, which is not good. My health is downgrading, which makes me sad cause i don't like getting sick. It sucks. I don't like to sit on my ass all day, and have no one around me. It's a drag. My moods have gotten worse, but i am dealing with it. I got good friends who don't judge me for it, so in turn, i can accept it more myself. I havn't fought with anyone in particular. Except Jeni. Guys.. please do not ask me what went down with us. I don't think everyone needs to know. Sorry if that's rude, but it is the truth.

I got my report card. I got 5 Bs and 1 c. Which cause my GPA to be a 2.8. But i am proud of it. I didn't get no Ds or Es so that makes up for it. I missed the Nintendo Fusion tour. I reallt wanted to go. I didn't have any money for the tickets. Dammit.

Tomorrow is the bowl-a-thon for St. Judes. It might be a blast i don't know yet. It depends on if everyone is gonna bitch at each other or not. Hopefully not. I gotta take the math meap all over again on tuesday. Which doesn't bother me much. I know i won't do the greatest, but i can hope for a better score than what i got last time. On Friday, is me and Brian's 14 month. yay. Then, the 30th, is brian's halloween party. It's gonna be awesome. I got my costume today. I'm a fairy. Yeah i know, so original. But Angela and rich are going. So is Will, Tricia, Trisha, carrie, sam, Andrew, Drew, Kim, John, another Drew ... I forget everyone else. Oh yeah .. and bret .... makes me wonder. Next tueday, my AFI cd comes out. I am ubber excited. (if i even spelled hat right). That my present for getting a good report card. I know, i get bribed. lol. I love it.

There's my long and pointless entry. Leave a comment so i have something to read sometime.

12:10pm: Homecomming
Tonight, is homecomming. The dance were everyone dresses up for no reason. You know, us girls, we all do out hair and getour nails done. We spend money on the most "beautiful" dress. Yes. How great is that?

Anyway ... Nothing interesting has happened. Nothing ever really does. My life doesn't consist of much. All i can say is i got good grades this marking period. I am gonna get better ones starting next week. Why u ask? So I can show people that i'm not as stupid as they think i am. Why do i care? Those people are my family. My mom doesn't think i'm stupid, she knows how smart i am. So does Angela and Jenn. But then my dad, doesn't get it. I just want to be a smart ass and be like "YAY i'm SMART". lol. And ... i need to graduate on time, and if i am gonna put effort into it, might as well do the best u can, right?

Well, i am off to make myself pretty. Homecomming is tonight. You have to put in more effort of the way you look than you noramlly would.

8:25pm: Great News!
I have had the few greatest days of my life. Hanging out with rich, angela, and brian is just a good thing for me. Well, i guess i can't say i have been having the greatest few days because i have been sick. Saturday morning, i sat at the docters office for two hours for a glucose tolerance test, and i got my blood drawn twice. Then, i got home and i cleaned the house. I got paid $20. Not a lot but i think it's worth it. Then, i went over Brian's, and we left and he got me the new The Used cd. He was gonna get me the new Otep CD but i told him i can ask my dad for it. House of Secrets. Lovley tittle. Anyway, then Angela called, and we headed to the mall. I met up with Rich, Angela and Jeni, and i was having a good time. Untill i started not feeling good. But it went away. I felt so bad for Angela because she couldn't find a dress that she wanted. After wards, we went our seperate ways. Well... kinda. Me and Brian went and got rich. He was jumping in the bushes and coing sexy poses for brian to take pictures of. Then, me rich and brian hung out. We went to arbys, and used a whole bunch of arbys cupons. I had fun. Today, i cut the grass, and went to my grandmas for a family dinner type thing. Me and brian were bored out of our minds! There is nothing to do at anyones grandmas house. I got to drive home. That was my eventful day. I want to hang out with Angela tomorrow, but it depends on how much homework i got. I gotta get a couple reports done by the beginning of 5ht hour tomorrow so that i don't fail. Which, i am good at working under pressure, so it won't be that great of an issue. Its fucking freezing in my house. I miss my immature boyfriend. After not seeing him for almost a week because i was sick, it was kinda like i barley knew him. Thats how bad my brain has been latley. But, i got to see him this weekend, and i got to hang out with my friends, and i got paid. yay! life is going good. Its improving slowly but surely. I'm glad though. I actually can't wait to go back to school. Get to go to voc tech, and see my trisha, then, I get to see Rih at lunch, which is exciting. We always amke good fun. From there on out, the only person i really see is Rich, so ... He is the high light of my every day! The past two weekends i have been with Angela, and Rich, and it's great. Oh shit .. i gotta burn the new greenday CD for Rich. I think i might burn te new used CD for Angela. I know she likes the an awfull lot. Tomorrow, i gotta get my ID, my homecomming Tickets, and get every singls piece of homework i missed. ;(. too much. Hopefully, i don't have an overwhelming bunch of it. I need to catch up on My medical reading. So doesd Angela. Ms. Petres said it would be good to take notes, so i am the note taker cause i am good at stupid shit like that. SO i have to go over and read all the other chapters i already read, and write down the stupid important stuff. Well, that has been my weekend. Hopefully i didn't bore u too much to make u complain. Later!

8:58pm: I am another Cliche
YAY, just found out i another cliche. My life sucks, i lost someone a considerd a good friend, and for some reason my moods aren't working with me right now. My brain chemicals are fucked up and so is my sugar level. I need a break. Plus all these classes i have, leave me with so much homework i don't have time for many things. Thats fine, it's hard to understand sometimes. So yeah, that is my update. Oh yeah... Sorry caitie for whatever i did. Sorry, but u know i am fucked up, so no one needs to make a bug deal about it anymore. And i actually do hope u have a happy life. I Wasn't lying.

2:00pm: sniffles
I hate being sick. It sucks. More then expected. The past two days, havn't been the best. The Caitlyn and Andrew breaking up was blown out of porportion, by their friends and one of them two. I just feel like the whole thing is so stupid. I don't feel bad for either of them, i never thought they would make it, i never even thought they would have made it 2 months. now, i know caitlyn is asking why. well i will tell u. I belive, that going out with Andrew right after u and kenny broke up was the wrost thing you could have possibly done to ur self. The fact that u weren't over him yet when u two started hooking up didn't help the situation. Now that i am strictly done with helping with the break up, do me a favor and never talk about it. I don't want to hear about it, cause if i hear it form one of u, the other is talking shit abou the other, and then my world it up side down all over again.
Now that i feel like i jsut pissed someone off, lets talk nice stuff. Angela is dating Rich, i saw a movie saturday, which i laughed my ass off too.
I am about to throw up, later